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i'm back..rasa exhausted sbb baru abis conference..almost 1 week kt PD..but still having fun there..bersyukur rasanyer dpt ofismate yg best2..alhamdulillah..apart from that..things are as usual..cuma kdg2 sukar tuk memahami diri sendiri..smp 1 thp i do feel that i am too complicated to handle! kasihan dgn org2 yg berada di sekililing sy..

actually ssh jgk bila terpaksa berperang dgn suasana ni..means that i have to accept anything that happen eventhough i knew i can't do it..knp mesti kehendak hati kita selalu bertentangan dgn hakikat sebenar? to be rational, I knew that Allah know the best, more than we know..perhaps things that we desired too much is actually bad for us..sy terima kenyataan ni..

sy membuat observation..its true that bila kita nk kan sesuatu, kita sggup buat apa saje, kita jnji dgn diri sendiri yg kita x kan sia2 kan kehendak kita tu, but once u got it, things change..lama kelamaan...kita mula x hargai..walaupun kita cube nafikan, tp kebenaran won't lie.. & never lie..mgkin juga bagaimana cara kita mendapat kan perkara yg kita desired for tu sdikit sbyk mempengaruhi..to put in simple word, semakin susah kita nk mendapatkan sesuatu, semakin kita menghargainya & vice versa..

sy xtau smp bila perasaan ni akan jd mcm ni, sdgkan masa makin dekat..sy tkt x mampu lepaskan sgala kenangan yg ada..sy tkt sy buat sesuatu yg wat sy menyesal di kemudian hari..n sy sentiasa dlm ketakutan skrg..anything can happen..cuma masa & takdir yg akan tentukan apa yg akan jd pd sy kelak...