saya musti menulis..

just few days ago i decided not write in the blog ever again..i am so scared i might hurt other people again..dlm ms tu inside here is kind of memberontak..i have to express what is inside..tend to do menda2 yg agak bodoh, so i know that i have to write..jd..mengertilah..this is my life..i love to express my feelings this way..so..kalau btl syg, sygilah juga minat sy..

hmm..take a deep breath zana..today is already friday..pejam celik dh abis seminggu..rs mcm br dgr brita mak ngah meninggal, then bergegas balik kpg mlm tu juge, then pg2 ziarah arwah, ptg tu berkejar masuk ofis balik..rupenye it was on monday n tuesday..al-fatihah utk arwah..semoga ditempatkan di kalangan org2 yg beriman..sedih saat tgk anak2 kucup arwah wt kali terahir sblm di kafankan..menitis airmata ni..lepas ni dh xdpt rs rendang kerang mak ngah lg ='(  itulah..ajal maut sume dh ditetapkan..dh smp ms, tetap kena pergi..hmm..xtau pulak bila ms sy dijemput nanti..dimana..bagaimana..dgn sapa..wallahualam..

this week quite a busy week..x saba pulak bila international division ni nk pndah TH perdana ni..cepatlah sket..x sggup nagadap keje bos yg byk tu..but on other part sedey juge sbb officer n staf lain di tarik juge..hmm..xdptlah jmp cik bebola yg comel lg pasni, daddy dia kena tarik jugak..hurm..tensen jugak bila bekerja dgn org2 x professional ni..psl jawatankuasa pn nk jd isu..mmg gila bila ada yg brani wt keje2 brani mati ni..boleh pulak tgh2 sibuk nk wt event, sempat lg wt surat layang bagai..mcm2..wt bos pening kpl je..please work professionally lah..n pray Allah make it easy..

looking at the clock, counting bila ms nk balik umah ni..hmm..planning to balik kpg mlm ni..mcm biasa..x betah (1st time guna this word) dok umah sewa ujung2 mggu..wt sakit jiwa dgn perkara di rumah..that part adalah satu lg perkara gila..thats why i have to write here..kalo x, i'll be insane like them..nk membebel dh xdpt, menulis je la yg mampu..hmm..sudah merindui adlea amni..she's already 1 year n she is sooooo adorable..suka melayan kerenah dia..n not to forget sarah khalesa yg comel..rs lupe luka yg di dalam..love you kids...for make me laugh at least..hmm..susah lah bila kita perlukan sbb atau alasan tuk wt sesuatu..kn lg sng kalau boleh buat sesuka ht tnpa perlukan alasan...(long breath n thinking the truth of this word..and it's true!)

jd..sy dh ada sbb knp sy musti menulis..sbb sy sukakannya..sbb ini jiwa sy..sbb ini curahan hati sy..sbb ini buat sy gembira..sbb ini wt sy tenang..sbb sy nk pembacanya tahu what's inside here..jd sy tahu sy musti menulis!